Saturday, September 19, 2009

The Event Planner

"'For I know that plans I have for you,' declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me an I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.'"
-Jeremiah 29:11

God isn't going to give us things we can't handle. He's going to use us for His will and glory. It's just hard to remember the Big Guy Upstairs when we're so swamped in homework, jobs, careers, and just life in general. But it really helps me to sit back for a moment and realize that it is His plans that are perfect, and not mine. It is His plans that are going to be fulfilled, not mine.

I am a planner, so I have a tendency to want to control everything to attain the outcome that I want. But I have to constantly remind myself that God is the true event planner here. He handles all the PR stuff. It's God who knows the right people to call, who communicates with everyone, and puts the right notifications out there... and he doesn't even need Facebook or Twitter to do it.

It's God who controls my finances, insures my safety, and guides my steps. Well, he tries to guide my steps, and I'm sure just like other event planners, He shakes His head sadly as His distracted and bumbling clients [aka me] dithers and dathers in an indecisive circle.

God is perfect, and so is His will--in the words of Paul, His pleasing, perfect will. His plans will never hurt us, but prosper us.

So why are we so dead set on trying to fix everything; trying to get that boy to like us, trying to get our careers started, trying to walk the path we've set for ourselves... all very admirable ambitions to be sure, but sometimes we have to sit back and say "Jesus, You know what's up here. I'ma pray for a lil bit and let You tell me what to do."

It's hard, but at the same time so relieving to know that we have an event planner doing all the big things for us. All we have to do is listen to Him and do as He says, so that by the end of this party we call life, we can go to Heaven knowing that His will has been done, and that our purpose has been fulfilled.

God is the ultimate event planner, and the ultimate event planner doesn't plan anything that could make our parties go awry.

It's the guests and the hosts (us), that do that bit ;)


Saturday, September 12, 2009

The Soundtrack To My Summer

As the warm breezes of summer gives way to the crisp autumn air, I sit outside soaking up the waning rays of a summer sun. I find, true to form, that there are several songs that will forever be define my Summer 2009. The list is as follows, each with a special meaning, memory, or feeling that will stand out for a while:

1. The Little Things - Colbie Caillat
2. Feeling Alright - Rebelution
3. All Again For You - We The Kings
4. Who I Am Hates Who I've Been - Relient K
5. This Love - Maroon 5
6. Down - Jay Sean
7. Dreaming With A Broken Heart - John Mayer
8. Bubbly - Colbie Caillat
9. I've Got A Feeling - Black Eyed Peas
10. Girls On The Dance Floor - Far East Movement
11. Sinner - Big B ft. Scott Russo
12. You Belong With Me - Taylor Swift
13. August Is Over - We The Kings
14. My Life Would Suck Without You - Kelly Clarkson
15. After Hours - We Are Scientists
16. Enter Sandman - Metallica
17. Don't Trust Me - 3oh!3
18. That's Not My Name - The Ting Tings
19. West Coast Friendship - Owl City
20. Secret Valentine - We The Kings

and for the record, I didn't leave my heart in the South Bay. Oh no, it's beating strongly [for the most part] and it is definitely right here with me :]

Thursday, September 10, 2009

heather in wonderland

College life has had its ups and downs but despite the downs I without a doubt, love it. To even imagine myself being stuck at community college yet another year blows my mind, it makes me nauseous. I feel like Alice when she fell down that rabbit hole and began her dream; somewhat bewildered by the changes in her world, but pursuing the White Rabbit and seeking for answers with dogged determination. This new world makes her see things differently, as it should, and she meets the most interesting of characters along the way.

My old life is still intact, my friends, family, and trials are still present. But this new life offers me a way to grow, spiritually, physically, mentally, and it helps revives me emotionally. The ennui I felt so often this past year has ceased to plague me.

College. It makes you thrive, it challenges you, it makes you laugh and smile, it makes you exhausted. It makes you feel as if you're truly trying to Carpe Diem.

I feel independent [albeit not financially.This is the time to forget about past mistakes and start over, clean and refreshed, but with the lessons I've learned from high school.

I feel like a child, surrounded by thousands of balloons, each one holding a new direction to follow in life, and it's all mine for the choosing. I'll probably end up spinning in dizzying circles trying to catch every one at once, and though I know I can't do everything, I'm willing to try!

Cheers to insanity friends, this is my college life.

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

the power of love

This skit always brings tears to my eyes. It hits home EVERY TIME, and just reminds me that Jesus isn't merely standing there, watching us live our lives, but He's fighting for us and protecting us.