Sunday, August 22, 2010

The next ocean

12 hours, three car loads, and one shopping trip later, I am FINALLY moved into my dorm room :)
It's super cute, two of my besties live right down the hall, and two great friends from high school live on the floor beneath mine. It's pretty freakin awesome, not gonna lie.

I'm so stoked for this year.
I know it's going to be stressful and crazy busy but I think I'm happier this way.
I wonder what adventures are in store this second time around, and more importantly, what God has to show me (through trials and blessings alike) this year.
Who is He going to bring into my life, and what is He going to use me for?
I'm trying to simply BE, and to listen to what He wants me to do, what I can do for His great plan.
It's pretty exciting stuff :)

I remember this time last year, I was so lost, hurting and broken. I was an emotional, clueless wreck but thanks to God and my friends, I somehow got through the year and I'm proud to say, the girl who walked into school last year, is no more. God has filled my heart with so much love and peace it's crazy. And all I had to do was trust Him. Imagine that.

I remember the day before I left, I drove down to my favorite beach and sat on the sand all by myself. I stared out into the ocean, and said to God, "This ocean is like my future. It's wide, and a little scary and I can't see the end of it. There are blank faces and empty canvases ahead of me. For the first time, I have no idea what kind of friends or what kind of life is in store for me. I'm so caught up in what's going on here, I can't see how I'll ever get out of this mess. I can't see how this hurt is ever going to go away. I just ask that you pull me out of here and I trust you will fill those blank faces and empty canvases with the right people and the right experiences."

And yet as I said this, I still wasn't sure. I was stuck in a rut.

But here I am, a whole year later. Some of the blank faces have been filled with some amazing friends and the empty canvas has splashes of color: laughter, tears, adventures, and life lessons. I've crossed the ocean. God not only pulled me out of that rut in my life, but He's placed me where I'm supposed to be. But now I'm sitting on another beach, looking at ANOTHER long stretch of water. Again, I can't what lies beyond. I'm about to go swimming in a storm of stress and chaos. And I can't wait.

My heart is full and I am content, so happy with my friends and family. I'm just in a better place than last year. And I have no doubt that God is going to do some amazing things and even if things go horribly awry, He will be there with me.

I just want to pray a blessing over everyone here at school, that we listen to His voice and that we stay strong whatever this year brings.

I'm about to dive in head first, and I'm excited to see what lies in this particular ocean.

Here's to another school year!


Saturday, August 7, 2010

welcome to paradise

Best friend + beach house + remaining weeks of summer...

It doesn't get much better than this :)

Sunday, August 1, 2010

expect a dry spell...

i have way too many journals/blogs:

1. this blog. which has thus far served as a site for all my ramblings, some adventures, prayers, etc. etc.

2. my tumblr. This is my visual diary of sorts.

3. my livejournal--no one reads this one but me. it holds many of my secrets, fears, and deepest thoughts. it's also a diary for long, boring entries that only i would find interesting.

4. my prayer journal. it's just a pretty journal that i keep on my desk. i write to God in it.

all of this to say, I write every day. I blog every day. But a lot of the times, it's not on this particular site. And lately I've been inspired to post more short blips on tumblr, and vent all frustrations out on the live journal. So if I don't post until the end of August or something, that's why.

Just thought I would give you a head's up!