Sunday, September 26, 2010

One Month Challenge, Week Three


I can't believe it's almost been a month since my first post! I'm still eating junk food but managed to reduce my intake (last night notwithstanding... hellooo three chocolate chip cookies). I even skipped fro yo this week!

I've been eating a lot of salad (without the dressing), bread (without butter), soup (without the crackers) and the occasional turkey slice. It's surprising how easy it is to maintain a high energy level during the day when I actually eat healthy. I've found I can concentrate better in class, be more productive, and work out more intensely. It's a win-win situation.

I'm still not junk-food free but I have learned how to avoid the binge eating. Whenever I get stressed, my first impulse is to eat. I just shut down. I binge, I sleep, I eat some more. But I've finally found a way to counter that.

Now instead of turning to food for comfort I turn to working out. Running, weights, yoga whatever, it works. And it's great.

I don't feel gross as much anymore, and I know how to combat cravings AND stress.

So even though I'm STILL not living up to the challenge completely, I'm learning some important lessons.

The month is almost up! Let's see how healthy I stay THIS week.

Thursday, September 23, 2010

MUSE



Once upon a time I wrote a bucket list. Number 4 was "See Muse Live."

Two years later it happened. And it was an amazing, kick ass time.

I've liked Muse for a long time, way before Twilight ever came to pass. (I'm still scratching my head over why Muse collaborated with vampires, but that's another post.)

Anyway, B and L drove out to school and the three of us drove to the Honda Center to see this amazing band here from England for the first time in who knows how long.

We were running late and we walked quickly into the lobby. We climbed up the stairs. The sounds of "Take A Bow" resonated from speakers. We picked up our pace. The crowd was going nuts, even though Muse wasn't quite on the stage yet. Suddenly, "Resistance" began playing. It was starting. Muse. Live. We started to run.

We made it to our seats just as the band came on stage. The roar of the crowd, the sounds of "Resistance," Matt Bellamy actually THERE... my adrenaline was rushing before I even put my purse down.

The whole concert was amazing. You know a band is good when they perform live, and they sound even better. Not every band sounds like that. But Muse does. The songs I've listened to over and over, now blasting from the stage, surrounded by people who loved their music as much as I do. Oh. Man.

A few of the songs they played:

+Resistance
+Supermassive Black Hole
+United States of Eurasia (minus Chopin at the end)
+Hysteria
+Starlight
+Time Is Running Out (How could the NOT?!)
+Undisclosed Desires
+The Small Print
+Feeling Good (swoon)
+Map of the Problematique
+Knights of Cydonia (FINALE gah).

My life is just that much more complete. I'm still high off the adrenaline rush.

What a great night :)

Saturday, September 18, 2010

One Month Challege, Week Two-ish


So in a previous post I began my challenge for September (inspired by CC), of forgoing junk food for an entire month, with the exception of frozen yogurt.

Well let me tell you what I've had to eat in the past two and a half weeks:

chips
ice cream
cookies
frozen yogurt

...oops. Fail!

But not entirely! So I started the week off well, not eating any junk food and this lasted for an entirety of oh, a day. But I really, REALLY limited my intake of the sweets and salty snacks. For example, I would have a handful of chips or a bite of a cookie. I rarely binged. And for me, that's huge.

So while I wasn't able to keep my paws off the junk food, I was able to use self-control and limit my intake. I felt good about myself, and according to Weight Watchers I didn't even use up all my points each day! I worked out with more energy than usual, and just felt more alert in general.

I also lost three pounds.

So even though I haven't been sticking to the challenge whole-heartedly there have definitely been positive results.

I'm still trying to stick to the whole "no junk food" mantra for the last two weeks, since starting over is always a good thing.

Here's to dedication :p

<3

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Realization.

The first time I thought I was fat I was five. A girl told me I was really fat so I believed her.



I thought my legs were too chubby.

But I got over it as five year olds do.

Then I turned 15. And I felt fat and self-conscious again.

I thought this picture of me made my stomach and arms huge.



I spent the next three years feeling like I needed to lose 25 pounds but I just couldn't find the self-control or dedication to do it.

So by the time senior year rolled around I was self-conscious about my stomach and still needed to lose 25 pounds. It never occurred to me that the fact I was the exact same weight as I was three years ago was an indication that it was okay.



This was supposed to be my senior picture. But it made my stomach look big so I chose a close up shot instead.

College was no different. I gained a lot of weight due to stress and other issues. So I was the heaviest I had ever been. I spent my entire fall semester feeling "blah." Not pretty, not attractive, just blah.

This is me at my lowest point (aka highest weight). You'll notice my face has gotten rounder and I'm not as skinny as I used to be haha:



I've lost eight pounds since that picture was taken. And I hope to lose 8 more. Or maybe even 10. But here's the deal: I'm OKAY with how I look now.

I look back on all these pictures, pictures where I formerly thought, "ew. untag. ew. i look so chubby." and I realize that I wasn't half as overweight as I thought I was. I had an image problem.

It wasn't an eating disorder. I was never anorexic or bulimic. It wasn't ever serious or life-threatening.

But I had image problems nonetheless. I would look in the mirror and think, "I'm not like those girls who look in the mirror and see a girl who is like, 20 pounds heavier than they actually are. This is really how I look. *sigh*"

But the ironic truth was, I WAS one of those girls. What I weight/looked like as a freshman in college, is how I thought I looked at 15. I wear a size 5 now. Back then I was a size 2. What??

It's crazy how that works out. It gets more ironic.

Right now, I weight much more and have more fat on my body than I ever did as a senior in highschool. But I finally see my self the way I really am. And I'm comfortable with that.

I'm just me. I acknowledge the areas that could lose fat/get toned/whatever. But I am also happy with the way I look right now.

Sure I'd like to be a size 2 again. But I'm much more secure now, as a size 5, than I ever was three years ago.

Quirks, flaws and all. It is what it is and it's me :)

updates, apologies, etc.

I meant to blog today, I really did.

I meant to write about my month challenge and how that was going, PRSSA, campaigning for Journalism Boot Camp, Washington D.C. and helping my aunt with her new baking business and so forth...

But then this little thing called 5 Hour Energy Drink came into my life.

The crash feels like death. And by death I mean the flu.

I feel a lot better now but still, ick.

Or maybe I really am getting sick (please God, no).

Either way, that's the last time I invest in energy drinks. Or in this case, energy shots.

Bleh.

Monday, September 6, 2010

One Month Challenge




I'm a big fan of the college blog College Candy and one of the columns they have is the One-Month Challenge. Every girl has something they would like to improve on. I've decided that for this fall semester, I will give myself a challenge for every month until we hit finals.

The One Month Challenge this month on CC, was to give up junk food completely. It inspired me to do a [slightly modified] version of this challenge too.

SO, my One Month Challenge for September 2010 is to give up on junk food entirely, with the exception of fro yo. Because really, who can expect a girl to get through a month without my fro yo. Impossible!

Basically, I'm cutting out anything unhealthy. This includes chips, fries, ice cream *tear*, brownies, etc. It's not so much of a challenge to lose weight, but more of a challenge to live the healthy lifestyle I've been fighting for all summer. It's time to give my body the break it deserves, and see if it will make any difference.

I'll be blogging here every Tuesday night to write some observations and report on my progress (or lack thereof).

Hope everyone had a great Labor Day weekend! Let's grind through until Friday :)

<33

Friday, September 3, 2010

falala

There is no doubt about it... after one week, three papers, four quizzes, and six bowls of oatmeal later, I have concluded that Fall semester will be a bit difficult. Our next break isn't until Thanksgiving *cries* but thankfully this weekend is the start of LABOR DAY!!!

This means:

-pedicures and fro yo with the girls
-dancing all night long
-partypartyparty
-trip to san diego. or maybe just the beach ;)
-BBQ/visit with the fam bam
-SLEEPING IN

I am thus far in heaven.

Can't wait!

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

theme song

It's been awhile since I've blogged. A shamefully long while, in fact.

18 units, work, friends, family, commitments... going from a summer of bliss to return to chaotic college life was a bit stressful! But now I've hit my stride again and it feels good :) Got my homework done, eating right, working out, hanging out with friends, learning from God... it's been a good week.

So that's what has been going on with me.

I think I will make it one of my goals this semester to blog at least once a week. Regardless of who reads (or doesn't read) my posts, it's a good thing for a journalist to, you know, actually write consistently haha ;)

I could write an extensively long and boring update on how great/challenging life has been but for now, I think it's just easier to sum it up in this song, because this is exactly what's up!



I'm feeling like a star, you can't stop my shine
I'm lovin' cloud nine, my head's in the sky
I'm solo, I'm ridin' solo

Yeah, I'm feelin' good tonight
Finally doing me and it feels so right, oh
Time to do the things I like
Going to the club everything's alright, oh

Told me get my shit together
Now I got my shit together, yeah
Now I made it through the weather
Better days are gonna get better

I'm so sorry that it didn't work out
I'm movin' on
I'm so sorry but it's over now
The pain is gone

I'm puttin' on my shades to cover up my eyes
I'm jumpin' in my ride, I'm headin' out tonight
I'm solo, I'm ridin' solo
I'm ridin' solo, I'm ridin' solo, solo


:D